Thursday, July 19, 2012

Off Topic

Today I decided that I am going to get a little off topic and talk about a few things that are happening in my life, so please excuse my post if it doesn't make much sense and I go from one topic to the next.

So I think I am almost done week 2 of my spending fast and as weird as this may sound I feel like I have way too much time on my hands. This cannot be a good thing, though I suppose it is a good thing. Did I or should I say we as a family really go shopping that much that we didn't even realize how much we actually did it and how much time we were spending doing it. And here I thought we were making progress with becoming less of consumers. Clearly the process is happening now. Also let me add how tricky birthday shopping can be when you only have 7 stores to choose from and your shopping for a 2 year old. I could have taken the easy way out and just grabbed a gift card, but come on how exciting can a gift card be to a 2 year old when it's not even exciting for me as an adult. But I managed to pull together a pretty good present and I would have to say the birthday girl seemed pretty happy.

Now onto the next thing. Recently I have learned that I am a behind the scenes kind of girl. Ha who would have ever thought that? I always wanted to be a famous person when I was kid...maybe even sometimes I still dream of it. But for the first time I went and volunteered where I had to physically be seen by complete strangers, and boy was I out of my comfort zone. Just before I was about to pull into the place I prayed to God that he would help me get through the evening. Well I made it through the evening and my eyes were wide open the whole time about how blind I was to world around me. Here I thought to make a difference I was going to have to go to a different country, well folks that is not the case. I can drive 20 minutes to see what a difference I can help make. Now back to the behind the scenes thing. Though I will continue to go back to help volunteer, I definetly feel like I am being led to help in creative ways. I never considered myself creative but I'm telling you, it's finally coming out and I am loving it!

Have you ever felt like your heart was going to explode? Ya, me too. I had that moment today when I was given three blogs to read. At one point I was bawling at the kitchen table while a bunch of kids were looking at me like I was crazy cause I was staring at a computer screen. Plus it didn't help that not one but 2 of the blogs showed pictures of Haiti, where I am heading to in March 2013. Yes, let's ruin Jo-Anne before she even gets there. But I will take it as a sign of it preparing my heart.

After today, I sit here and wonder, Why Me? Why I am so lucky to live in such a marvelous place, where I can choose to have something? Why was I chosen to do the things I do? Sometimes people question the way my life has changed. Shouldn't they be happy that I have become a better person, that I want to make a difference? I thank God that he has been so wonderful to give me a second chance. My life is in no way the way I had imagined it to be, but it's far better. So if I need to continue to change for His glory, then I am His.

"For I know the plans I have for you,"says the LORD. "They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.
                                                 Jeremiah 29:11


  1. Well, I love your post and reading about all the exciting changes in your life! I totally understand how you felt when you volunteered for the first time, in a new place outside your comfort zone....was there myself, not many months ago ;-) One of the hardest(and best!) decisions I ever made. I pray you find just the right place for you...either in front, or behind the scenes. God is transforming your life for His purposes, and that is very good! I'm so proud of you, you are an inspiration. God Bless, kathy